6 days of break was enough

It’s over, we’ve talked today.
She needed me as a friend and I was able to be there and that’s all there is to it.
I need to keep my emotions in check and I can do it.  
This feels better than tanning.

Comfortably Numb

Non-contact on the break has continued and I have to say I completely, totally hate this. I spent years shelving my feelings to avoid pain and now I’m doing it after them coming alive. How fair is that? This year, with our meetings, we managed to spend 15 days, and 14 nights together and I [...]

Manic Monday

First day of school for the youngest, now in high school. In terms of my timeline, this is the start of the end. By 4 years from now, I’ll be free one way or another. It’s hell to be afraid to do what’s right for you for fear of contact with your child being withheld [...]

Day 3

Day 3 of the break and it’s not getting any easier. Keeping busy is helpful, but every once in a while, I come across a reminder, or something I used to share with her, even just a text or something. Have to resist it.
I wonder if she’s having the same problems and feelings.

How plans change . . . . .

I guess my friend is on her way meeting OG today, in the same town where we last met. Before the break, we had talked about her stopping by on her way home Sunday and saying “hi” where I was going to be, but not now. And we’re both going to be in the same place [...]

On Break part deaux

It’s official
Thinking of all the things I’ll miss. There will be a lot and I can only hope my friend will get what she wants.