I’m employed again!

Well, I’ve accepted the offer, need to take a pee test and pass a background check (hopefully my secret internet activities won’t come out!) and then start work ASAP! Need to find something temporary to live in before moving the household. I think S.U. is disappointed it’s not closer to home for her but tough [...]

Geez, has it really been a month?

Sorry folks, but I’d have to admit my focus has been elsewhere. I’m currently on day 4 of the mandatory Thanksgiving visit to the S.U.’s hometown (where she’s currently living) and honestly can’t wait to hit the road tomorrow. If you can believe it, there’s still not been an opportunity where she’s discovered the tattoo, [...]

Interview review and exhausted in every way

Physical exhaustion from 13 hours of driving Monday, continuing to move stuff from the house. Emotional exhaustion fromall the turmoil involved and a very strong desire to spend quality time with my friend. Spiritual exhaustion because my beliefs and value system are being questioned as to why I’m going through this. Mental exhaustion because . [...]

A Happy Post

Despite everything going on that’s negative, I feel pretty good today. In the midst of packing, sorting, job hunting and such, my friend came into town. We met Friday for a late lunch which was just nice to sit and talk, catch up, reconnect. Before I left, needing to get more done before the evening, [...]

I miss . . . . . . IM Sex

OK, I know, I’m sure I could get this in any chat room but it’s not what I miss. It’s been a long time since my friend and I have done this and I think this truly reflects the pull-back she’s making from me. For seven months, it was ok for us to meet for [...]

More things I miss

Of my original pathetic list, put out when my friend and I were on break, now that we’re talking daily again, I have many of those back. It’s still uneasy, there’s still a tension at times. I know she wants to talk about what’s going on with OG, but I can’t handle that now. I [...]

I don’t wanna talk about it . .

. . . . . . how you broke my heart . . . . . . .
Wish I could think of what song that was from, I’d post the rest of the lyrics.
I’ve had a few conversations in the last 2 days with my friend. Last night, I told her I really don’t want [...]

Never Enough

We got to see each other yesterday. It was wayyyyyy to public, and wayyyyyyy too chaste for me. I’m sure it was exactly how she wanted it, to control the situation as much as possible but it’s maddening to me. I want so much more and I’m not going to get it.
It’s almost worse than [...]

Didn’t Happen

Incredibly depressed, time changes and demands from others destroyed my best chance for any alone time, not that it was going to amount to much other than a dinner. I’m sensing something odd from her too. I made mention about a kiss versus hug during one conversation and received a very chaste “a hug will [...]

Anticipation of a reunion

Tomorrow will make it 7 weeks (when we talked yesterday, I thought it was 8 but went back and counted and it’s 7 weeks) and my friend and I are supposed to see each other in the evening after all the day’s festivities.
Wait, it’s not like that. It’s just dinner (sushi) and some drinks.
I’d be [...]